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[May. 19th, 2025|06:01 pm] |
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 friends only ( comment here to be added ) ♥ (jsyk, i add pretty much everyone) |
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[Jan. 23rd, 2010|11:43 pm] |
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Your past life diagnosis:
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Ontario around the year 1525. Your profession was that of a entertainer, musician, poet or temple-dancer.
Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
You always liked to travel and to investigate. You could have been a detective or a spy.
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
You should develop your talent for love, happiness and enthusiasm and you should distribute these feelings to all people.
Do you remember now?
http://www.thebigview.com/pastlife/index.html
Obviously fake, but rather interesting nonetheless...
I'm not sure if calculations like this, or astrology or anything of the like, are in any way reliable or true information (i'm leaning towards no) but I can see something like this applying to me.
Really I just really love the idea of finding some sort of spiritual origin.
If past lives and soul fragments and things of that sort are retrievable, I wonder how that would be possible. Can we actually know where we came from? Can we actually trace the path that each part of us has traveled on the astral plane?
I don't expect that to make any sense. Just a thought. |
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[Jan. 1st, 2010|06:02 pm] |
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Welcome 2010. Graduation year! I'm beyond excited about it...and nervous, since so much is going to change in the next year. I hope it's just as good if not better than the last year has been for me.
I've decided to make resolutions for once, even though it's terribly cliche and I'm not sure how I'll go about making some of them happen. Mainly, I just want to improve and build on the relationships in my life, and I think it's really time that I blaze the path and grow into who I truly want to be. As life changes so much this year I want to change as well...and I will.
Not to mention: cutting down on the smoking (this is going to suck, but I'm sick of always being paranoid about how I smell, and it's horrible for me, I know), get a job!, get my driver's license within the next three months, and yes, find a boyfriend...just to see if there is anyone who is boyfriend material around these parts (which may prove to be difficult since juggalos, stoners, fat 30+ chubby men, and men with moobs seem to be the only ones who come my way. DNW, thank you.)
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NYE was spent at home, with my sister, her fiance, two of their friends, and one of my friends, who proceeded to get exceedingly drunk and threw up all over my couch and floor, which was absolutely delightful to clean up... ah well. Other than that, it was fun. I don't feel too bad for her, as everyone has to learn their limits at some point, I just hope the hangover's not too awful. Pauvre bébé! :(
I'm exhausted and even though all I want to do is paint and sleep, I really need to go now and get some actual work done, so in short,
happy new year and good riddance to the past.
♥
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[Dec. 13th, 2009|11:01 pm] |
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I'm bored. Here's a music plays meme I stole from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) listensostill . Goodnight.
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[Dec. 4th, 2009|12:12 am] |
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i seem to have caught the absolute worst case of senioritis ever. 12:08 am and i've yet to even open my bookbag.
i'd just rather drink hot cocoa and look at pretty pictures all day.
(brandi strickland) |
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[Sep. 19th, 2009|08:23 pm] |
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| | "it's a rainy day, sunshine girl" - faust | ] |
I've found that I just can't tolerate people who only talk to me so they can talk about themselves. Shit gets old reaaaally fast.
Do let me know if I ever develop that habit, and please promptly smack me.
Do you ever just come across people or stumble upon journals and you really feel like you should totally be friends but it never happens? I hate my shyness!
I have met a few more people recently, though. I feel like every new person I talk to is a little inch toward being more outgoing. I often wonder what causes shyness in some people and a lack of it in others. Hopefully this will come up in psych class.
I'm getting really excited about this altered book project...first I need to get the book or figure out how to bind it, then plan the pages. That will be a pain in the ass, but we'll see. I'm trying to find a novel that would work well for it. I like the theme of romantic love....it's not something I'm very experienced with, but I think about it a lot lately. Not necessarily pining for it, but...I dunno.
I leave you with a four-legged woman. Good evening.
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[Aug. 31st, 2009|05:12 pm] |
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| | "voices (on the air)" - siouxsie and the banshees | ] |
I'm in love with Egon Schiele's artwork.
Life has been alright lately. I've been able to go out almost every day for the past week--went bowling/got some AMAZING Thai food with Jackie, spent like three hours with Becca and Justin at Denny's (I knew that would go well), saw The Juliets, 800beloved, and the Von Bondies on Friday with Jackie (AMAZING show for a bevy of reasons) on Friday after going to ikea with Erin (never been there before, loved it), saw 'Inglourious Basterds' on Saturday with Hernan which was mildly weird because I don't do well in typical "date"-type scenarios (plus I'm not really interested in him, though he's cool) though the movie was AWESOME, then went to Jackie's bday/farewell thing on Sunday, saw 'Taking Woodstock' which was meh, and I SHIT YOU NOT got chased out of the theatre by a guy in a creepy-ass Michael Myers mask who then got arrested AT GUNPOINT by six undercover cops. It was hilarious.
The more time I spend out and about and having fun the less time I have to stress over stupid nonsense things. It's both a good distraction and a good way of making life fulfilling. I have had some bad periods this summer but overall it's been the best one I've had so far, I think--traveling and getting to experience so many new things and spend time with so many people I love and meet new people has been the best of it all.
Goals before school begins again (I have 8 days):
+Finish reading 'The Outsider' by Albert Camus, which Erin bought for me in NYC--shouldn't be too hard as it's a short, simply written novel;
+Go shopping and get some more ~fashionable things for this year;
+Pay back Taylor for the books she sent me (four novels for $20--love her);
+Figure out how to start my Wayne State App, which doesn't need to be until like...the end of the year, but I don't really understand the whole thing, so I should get a head start on it;
+Schedule and do my stupid yearbook photo with Prestige;
+Get a haircut and do a conditioning treatment on my hair which is FRIED as hell, but somehow I like the weird messiness. I'm thinking fringe again--AFTER my yearbook photo, in case it looks bad;
+Order my books;
+Schedule my physical exam;
+Go to another concert;
+Finish one painting I've started and do at least one more, and one more drawing;
+Get out as much as possible.
PS From now on if I post an anon entry just assume it's not about you, haha. I didn't know people were so paranoid, dayyyyyyyum bro.
I need to get off the computer now. Au revoir.
<3
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| "a last ditch effort is always the best" |
[Aug. 17th, 2009|11:48 pm] |
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Goddammit I hate pretentious people. Holy shit.
Throwing 8,000 long words together does not make you sound worldly, it makes you sound like a damn fool.
And what's with that faux-joylessness? I don't understand people who act like they have this profound fear of smiling.
K, that little vent is over. Other developments:
+I have missed going to concerts in Detroit. so, so much fun. (Adult., F'ke Blood, etc = incredible, one of my favorite shows ever.)
+I Love You, Beth Cooper is one of the worst films I have ever seen.
+My libido has practically disappeared lately. This is an *extremely* peculiar feeling.
+I wish I had retractable teeth in my vagina. (I watched a movie called 'Teeth' earlier...that's the only reason I'm thinking about this)
+My social awkwardness has been a little bit better in recent days.
+I want to be Alison Mosshart. Or at least, get with her. HOT DAMN.
+I need my fucking license. But first this means practice...ugh why do the brakes have to be messed up NOW?
+I am obsessed with Diamanda Galas. Some very strange things go on in that woman's head, but I think it is fascinating.
+School starts in three weeks and one day. What the ever-loving fuck. :(
+I miss people.
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[Aug. 5th, 2009|10:54 pm] |
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A few things:
a. Paris is the most dream-like, luxurious place I've ever visited.
b. The fact that Avignon, which was built as a place for the French pope, is now a tourist-friendly shopping center is really odd/amusing to me.
c. Medieval castles are fascinating. And dangerous!
d. I am done with climbing stairs that go hundreds of feet up, even though the view is "fabulous".
e. Nice is nice.
f. Mediterranean men are creepsters like no others.
g. If I never eat camembert cheese, flavorless yogurt, mini-baguette sandwiches, or salad with vinaigrette on it again, it will be too soon.
h. Italians know what's up with bargains.
i. I cannot deal with any more stupid teenage girl drama. Fuck that shit.
j. I need to not get wasted off my ass and ...do things with girls I don't care about.
k. Chain-smoking Pueblos on the balcony in Nice is one of my favorite things ever.
l. Cuddling is wonderful.
C'est tout.
I miss everyone so much. It is so hard being thousands of miles from home with only a couple of people to really talk to for ten days. Getting off the plane and going home and eating greasy pizza and watching Secret Life was one of the most welcome events I can remember.
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[Jul. 24th, 2009|06:04 am] |
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shit man, i really need to stop going to bed at 6-6:30 am.
good morning, regular people!
and goodnight for me.
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[Jul. 10th, 2009|07:10 pm] |
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I didn't know it was possible to feel relieved, pleased, relaxed, furious, jealous, annoyed, resigned, exhausted, bored, impatient, content, and restless all at one time.
Wait, it is, right? 'Cos lately I really feel like I'm losing my mind and changing a lot personally and I don't know if I like it.
God, I'm becoming so many things that I used to hate.
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In more tangible news I spent this whole week in Mississippi swimming, eating chicken, and hanging around shady characters. I have a wicked tan and sunburn and a newfound love for the country, but I can't imagine living there. Nice place to visit but I sooo missed my bed and my city and my family and loves. Also, being driven for almost three long-ass days by an old woman who barely even remembers what the buttons in her car do has really made me want to actually start practicing my own driving. I'm going to go over my book tonight and hopefully I can get some driving in this week. I'm sick of other people's ineptitude at driving so I want to learn and be good at it.
I have felt so isolated from everything this week. I missed a lot of shit and I'm really, really not happy about it.
Actually, I'm really not too happy in general, but who cares.
Mostly, I feel torn between my brain and my instincts and what people are telling me. I just don't trust anyone right now. I don't know if I even trust myself.
I have a lot of things to prepare for, too, and a lot of people I want to see...I need to stop making my happiness depend on what other people want. It's my life, dammit. Who's running this show? blahblahsorry I'm like really...restless right now.
Don't know what's going on with Lutherfest tomorrow, hope I can go.
Oh and Ann Arbor art fair is coming up, I should see when that is, and if I can go.
Also, I am really scared of France, haha. I have forgotten pretty much all of my French. I'm gonna be so damn lost.
Anyhoo, I miss people. I'm going to make some calls now.
Later, "y'all".
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| "new york city is a place so nice, everybody says it says it so they had to name it twice" |
[Jun. 30th, 2009|10:29 pm] |
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I wanna live in NYC so bad.
I finally got to visit this weekend and I just...fell in love.
Manhattan is kindof chaotic and commercial, but it was still fun. I think I left a little part of me in Brooklyn, though. The whole atmosphere and everything there felt like home for me, even though I felt terribly homesick the whole time. ( more deetz )
If you don't feel like reading that whole thing, in a nutshell: NYC's amazing, I love the diversity, MoMa = love, the food is awesome, I love Brooklyn, I SAW PAUL BANKS, Pratt was really lovely but also a bit unhelpful, I'm still torn about college plans, 60s garage music is amazing, and I miss my friends.
Wow, I really need to learn to condense my entries better. Whatever, idc it's my journal.
Much love. <3
Have a good night.
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[Jun. 12th, 2009|11:53 pm] |
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first great night of the summer.
i love my life!
and i love spontaneity.
and i love my friends!
ACT tomorrow morning. :[ cross your fingers for me....i just want a 28+ so bad. |
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[May. 31st, 2009|11:02 pm] |
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Oh my god, I really don't care about icosahedrons and Reagan and triangles.
A week and a half and I'm set...oh June 13th can't come quick enough. :[
Also, missed Fischerspooner AND YYYs.
Weeknights are laaaaame.
Also I've decided that custard is Satan's creation.
Squishy semi-liquid things sloshing around in my mouth...ugh, the texture is just so creamy and nasty.
I miss my friends right now even though I've had hardly any time to myself all weekend.
When did I become so needy?
Ooh, La Dolce Vita is my new favorite movie. Three hours of blissfulness and sexy Italian people and interesting observations.
Aaaaaaaaaaaand I'm done procrastinating. I think. Or I will be in a minute. fml, I suck.
/bitchin
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[May. 12th, 2009|06:31 pm] |
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| | X Ray Spex - "Germ Free Adolescents" | ] |
Oh my god, today is so lovely. Look outside! GO OUTSIDE!
I got home pretty early and went down to the park and just zoned out listening to Norman Greenbaum and oldies for awhile. There was hardly anyone there even though the weather today is absolutely fabulous.
It was so peaceful.
I felt all close to the earth and shit. In general, I like to look at the planet itself as my constant companion. Like, when I feel lonely, I like to go outside and sit on the ground and feel the warmth coming from it and I don't feel so alone anymore.
Becca told me that my beliefs on the nature of the earth and life and spirituality and all that are kindof like "The Force" from Star Wars. I dunno if I should take offense to that or what. I've been thinking about this topic a lot lately.
Spring and summer always bring out my more thoughtful hippie-dippy tendencies. There is more time spent around other people and in social gatherings, more warmth and more glow. I've always been really inspired by the new growth of spring and the color and the connectedness. Winter always leaves me so dead.
At any rate, life is good. Grades suck, but I'm trying my best. Friends are okay, especially now that AP Exams are over with. Health is good again!! Weather is fantastic. Schedule should be alright as I decided to take Anatomy next year instead of Microbiology. Workload is alright. Too much reading and studying this week! And even still, here I am wasting time on livejournal! I'm going to stop now!
A tout à l'heure!
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[Apr. 20th, 2009|04:50 pm] |
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| | x-mal deutschland - "zu jung, zu alt" | ] |
+is it weird that this was my favorite song when i was a little kid?
i only had a vague idea of what it could be about, but i just loved it. i thought it sounded so cool and unique et cetera.
somehow i'm really diggin' it again lately.
+i completely and unabashedly bombed my lit into film test on one flew over the cuckoo's nest. i literally wrote, in a few more words, that i hadn't actually read the book and thus couldn't properly answer the questions, so sorry!. i was really tempted to draw all over the blank space on my paper but i decided mr. gruber might not be amused by that.
+break was wonderfulllll for a ton of reasons and hence i was in an inexplicably great mood all day today. i'm not sad that it's over, but i'm sad that the weather decided to be shitty again and now i have to go back to a boring stressful schedule again that leaves hardly any time for fun. :( i want it to be my birthday like, now.
+apparently, i give off a possible lesbian vibe. i don't even know why i thought of this earlier, but i asked a couple of my friends and they both told me i don't exactly seem straight. i don't mind at all, because well, it's not completely untrue, but i wonder what exact cues give a person ideas about someone's sexuality. i've already established that i have horrible gaydar, so maybe it's just me. i don't generally think much of it unless a person is attractive to me or if they are really open about their straight-ness or gay-ness.
+why does every x-mal deutschland song have pretty much the same melody? it's always "ooooOOOOOOOOhhhhOOOHHHooooooooo something x2" in German. I mean, I like it, but it's weird.
k. i'm procrastinating for no real reason...i have hardly any homework.
the weather sucks ass today. grr.
i hate you michigan.
peace.
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[Mar. 30th, 2009|05:57 pm] |
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i ♥ trompe l'oeil pavement art
so
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[Mar. 6th, 2009|03:46 pm] |
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| | the dream syndicate - "cinnamon girl"... einsturzende neubauten - "stella maris" | ] |
I'm in love with Victor Brauner.
I feel inspired. TTYL. |
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[Feb. 8th, 2009|12:06 am] |
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| | what don't you fucking understand? - christian bale | ] |
-Franz Ferdinand is playing here on May 3rd and the Kills are coming here with the Horrors(!!!!!!!!!!!!) on May 8th.
May is going to be AWESOME.
-I still haven't listened to the new FF album, though, mainly because I haven't gotten my ass to Best Buy yet. They're one of the few bands I care enough about to buy the physical record. They play "Ulysses" a lot on sirius radio....it's grown on me.
-In equally unimportant news, I've decided driving doesn't actually suck! Today was the first time I drove that it actually was a little bit fun...we were driving down one of the main roads not far from my house, and for just a couple of seconds, I thought, "wheee!". I felt like I was on a roller coaster ride. It was awesome.
I'm not one of those natural drivers, but I'm not terrible. I'm careful. I just need to get a feel for it.
I'm a bit nervous because on my next drive I have to go on the expressway and I'm afraid I'll be that one in 500000 or something who doesn't make it on. I doubt it, though. It doesn't seem like it will be too difficult.
-I randomly decided to teach myself how to write and draw with my left hand. It's legible now, but it still slightly resembles that of a serial killer. Drawing takes three times as long, but it ends up looking not that different.
-My love for Obama has suddenly skyrocketed lately. I don't even know why. I think I will write a letter to the White House and just fangirl over how very awesomexcore!!11 he is. Becca and I are going to make "virgins (or uh, nonvirgins) for Obama" teeshirts. Because we're cool and hip and with it.
-Oh, and this song literally made my week. I want to have an obscene dance party with this playing. Complete with axe and raincoat and whores and huey lewis music. or maybe a batsuit. or maybe a cowboy hat and russell crowe. or maybe a bunch of gay glamrockers. or something.
Good night all.
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